~Zumanity

i got so tired of seeing my new years rant i had to change it.



now to buisness:

I KNOW Im never here anymore. I appologize if i had any fans, Ive been quite busy lately.

I've been writing less
I Tried creating a series......
but it failed after the 8th installment.

I've just about stopped doing photo editing.

just thought id give you a heads up on whats going on.

on the bright side...Im still alive and well.

havent talked to you in a while Greetz, but i hope all is well.

molto avare

Mood: beyond ornery
music: Tool - Disposition

Im so sick of it. this has to have been the worse new years ever, Im not even exaggerating. I spent it up with some friends at my friends beach house. everything started off fine, smoking a cigar, smirnoff (nothing heavy since im driving, i only had one). then random people showed up. fine. no big deal. then towards 11 everyone is buzzed or gone and my friend is hooking up with every girl i had my eye on. Im supposed to be back at 11:30pm since im not sleeping over like everyone else.. keep that in mind and. I get asked at 11:10 to drive a kid home because his mom is going to the hospital for something. fainted or something like that. but whatever. since only me and 2 other kids are sober we are the only options to drive him home. my problem is, why do i ALWAYS have to save peoples asses while everyone else has a great fucking time. 2 other kids could have drove him who didnt have a time to be home. by now your probably saying "well just drive the kid home, he cant live that far away right?" fucking wrong. Im at Salisburry MA and this kid lives In Maine. thats at least 2 hours back and forth. plus that $10 in gas + $4 in toll's. i had to drop the kid off at a McDonalds near the boarder of Maine so his sister could come pick him up because there was NO WAY i was making it home in time if i drove him the full way. so lets see, $14 gone and i've wasted my night to save another kids. yeah, nice thing to do for him since he's a total stranger to me but for fucks sake Im tired of saving everyones buns. oh and heres the most fucked up part. i came home just after the ball drops and i go to the kitchen for chinese food. i open my fortune cookie and the fortune is "the time is right for you to make new friends." You know, including all the poo going on besides tonight, the idea of not breathing anymore sounds perfect...

RIP Dimebag Darrell, we have lost one of the greatest metal guitarist of all time.I believe in the words of Manowar,

"Brothers of metal
We are fighting with power and steel
Fighting for metal that's all that's real
Brothers of metal will always be there
Standing together with hands in the air

Let us drink to the power drink to the sound
Thunder and metal are shaking the ground
Drink to your brothers who are never to fall
We're all brothers of metal here in the hall."

Mood: blank
Music: Dimmu Borgir - Sympozium

oh good, its Sunday and I get to stay in and read "the grapes of wrath" well lady freakin da! I like this book sometimes but i hate having to read books for deadlines, i dont like being rushed.

hmmmmm hows my weekend you ask? well not that bad. on friday I finally put my rof rack on my jeep but now when i go over 50mph i get this low whooshing sound as if the soft top flapping wasnt bad anough. eh oh well. after i put that on i went down to exit 23 for a show, good times however i did ge thrown from the pit into a wooden beam
and thats why my shoulder is bruised and swollen. On saterday i went to another show at the sad, BORING except when the 3rd band opened up with an APC cover.......then their set just completely went downhill. oh well better get back to reading, check out the new poem and i promis i'll put a new picture up soon! love you all

Music: Chevelle - Breach Birth


Im diving back down, and I just don't care anymore...


Thats all i have to say.